Hello everyone :D

I've so many thoughts. i think if i dont write them down somewhere im going to go crazy..My heart is still aching now. i know i shld move on and i want to. but flashes of memories kept appearing in my head. the times we walked from tiong to my house, the reading of ur text after every training, the morning msg that we sent, the times i waited for you to end school, the times i sent you back home.

2 days without texting you. it wasn't that unbearable when i have things to do, friends around me, trainings and stuff. but now when i'm alone at night.. i feel really lonely and unsecure.. you may have already moved on, used to not having me in ur life.. well it's you who changed ur heart first anw.. i did initiate the break but i'm not the one who changed.

i dont know how long will it take to put it all behind me... i know it wont be easy and it wont be soon. i dont know if i have given up totally. it's always easy to say let go but never easy to actually let go.

maybe, just let time heal the wounds.

It's the last day of holidays today and i bet everyone doesn't feel good about it. was having a chit chat session with teammates at KFC after we eaten and our topic started to touch on school stuff again. it's a sad scene really. no longer talking abt shopping or movie on any day next week or whatever. haha sigh im worried too, worried i wont have any motivation to study next sem. but i need the motviation man. last sem, make it or break it..

Dear, I know you are really stressed over for ur fyp and studies again. and well, new friends you gonna meet this sem. but just tell urself you can do it alright. dont feel sad that you're seperated from ur classmates.. even if all the things around change and dont go ur way, remember that something doesn't change okay. I'm always here with you no matter what happens alright. cmon brace urself up, dont feel sad anymore. get ready for the next sem in a positive attitude! :)) Love youu alwayss.

School is starting soon, just thought that I would spend some time writing some stuff down and start afresh for my new semester.

I hate to say it but the last sem or probably the last few months of my life didn't really go the way I wanted it to be. Things went wrong and I'm seriously down in luck. might changed into an angry person who blames on his luck all the time. but dont worry im back to myself again. well lets forget abt the past and move on.

all that i wish for the upcoming semester is that i really can find the motivation to pull up my grades and pull through the sem. work hard for everything that is important to me.

i know things aint that smooth between us recently but i believe we will pull through. things have changed for the better indeed, lets keep it that way and better alright. soon we will be back to like how we were before and even better. I love you, dear.

Hi trying to re-activate my account. hello....

Thank God exams are almost done. In a week (: Can't wait to spend some quality time with you again

All theeee best for tomorrow

hello people!

Jiawei is currently too busy immersing himself in studies to blog! and promises that he'll treat yall to lunch if he doesn't do well (:

( I love you swinee. Study hard and stop procrastinating =} )

i'm eating ice-cream at this hour!!!!!!!!!!!

Hais, down with throat infection. but haven go and see doc yet.. skipped training cos was feeling dam unwell. normally after sore throat will be fever. but hope that i wont get that. slept whole day at home after school, wasted today. damn.

Sunday.
Went to meet her after trng. met her at clementi station, made her wait for abt half an hr.. ahh. anw went to vivo after that to walk around. had a light dinner and then ben and jerry ...woo went to the open area to slack awhile and then took a cab home after that.

WOO. today is a blast. school ended at 1 today and clique decided to have an outing. it was buffet and then movie! hmm so after school headed down to Cathay first and then went to SAKAE SUSHI near PS. eat eat eat from 3 plus till 5 plus! haha after that walked around in PS before catching our 6.40 show. its HANDSOME SUIT. lolol! thought it was a lame movie, which it its. but its quite touching as well. maybe a 4/5? not a bad movie. and and the girls in the movie are damn hot! LOL! anw movie lasted for abt 2 hrs and finished at around 9. went back home after that.

PEEKTURESS:)

Tuesday:
hmm what abt tues? oh! i just rmbed that we got to go all the way to block 45 for our clsp lecture. omg! its like so dam far. and tiring. LOL haha anw after that went to eat at alumni and then went to the cca booth at the fiesta for its my slot from 12-2. hmm stayed there all the way till 2.45 and left for a workshop from 3 to 5.

After lesson, went back to cca booth to slack while waiting for her to finish her exam for dip plus. shortly after that she called and so i went off.. initially was just thinking of accompanying her home but decided to have pizzahut dinner when we overheard some students talking abt that. LOL! she still got her vouchers left and its gonna expire soon.. hmm after eating send her to the station and went back home. was quite tired so didn't manage to study which i plan to. haha

Wednesday:
was late for lesson for 45 mins. lucky its only for downloading software and stuff. so its still alright. hope my tutor will forget abt it. lol! after that had a 2 hrs break. lunch at megabites and then do abit of the tutorials over at ourspace. sold my cap to malcom for 30 bucks. plus a drink. LOL. aye didn't really wear the cap much, so decided to sell it off. after lesson came home. now taking a break from studying. gonna do the tutorials after this.

Till then.

last day of hols. decided to spend my whole day with her since we will have less time for each other when school starts. she came my house in the morning, slacked and went Great World City to watch 17 Again! that movie is super nice. can give it a 5/5 there are funny moments and very very touching moments. everybody should go watch!=) hmm anw after that dinner at yoshinoya and sent her back home.

and and, she got me a wallet. super nice :)

hmm on a heavier note, school is starting tml and i've once again set aims and targets for myself. this sem i'm gonna plan ahead for everyday. and stick to the plan. i'm not going to fall asleep in lectures or tutorials. i'm going to print my own notes. i'm going to finish every tutorials. I'm going ace this sem. watch me.

Aww, i'm becoming a lazy blogger soon. i'm going to blog about everything now! JB trip and polo chalet! which took place this week.

had a great time with her today. watched Knowing at tampines mall. the movie was kind of good and bad at the same time. would only give it a 3.5 out of 5. the ending was kinda..erm... you get what i mean. haha anw the new mall at tampines was alright only. i think the main attraction of there is the new shop named uniqlo. need to queue up just to get in man.. we were both too lazy to queue.lol! maybe head over there next time. when the crowd gets thinner.

going to JB with canoe polo mates tml. woo first time i went overseas with friends. OK even though its just msia. hahaha hope tml will be fun.!

PS: I'll miss you, definitely.

Oh man, it's been weeks since i last blogged. was occupied with trainings and stuff. didn't have the mood the post anything up here though... hmm there's still some time before i need to prepare for work later..

Mahjong! during the past few weeks i had a few mahjong sessions. 3 to be precise. haha i've won all of them and i think my luck had reach its limit.. so i guess i'm not having any mj session anymore, or maybe just one more before school starts. let's see first.

Haircut! didn't have any since start of hols. hair is now super thick and annoying. looks nice with a cap on though. but i wanna cut it short again. prefer it that way. maybe going to cut on tues with glen or smth.

Year 2~!

tml is the day. to put what we have given in the past 1 year or so into results. make it or break it. our choice. i seriously must be at my best tml. put up a good fight, give it all.

dont panic,
dont fumble,
dont make stupid mistake,
score when there's opportunity,
zone well,
hardwork,
CONFIDENT.

team freestyle, lets do it.

had quite a great time today. had mahjong with secondary peeps today. glen, jiahong and leslie. met them for breakfast at macs in the morning. and then started our rounds.won quite abit and then we had dinner over at queensway market. had stingray, sotong and kangkong. since glen and me won, we treated the other 2.. hmm then after that we decided to walk ard at queensway shopping centre. and then we kept talking abt our past and we ended up having a good chat over at macs. headed home ard 9 plus. hoho.

long time since i met them and its the first time in the hols i saw them man. due to clashing trngs and working schedules. tsk tsk. finally a meet.

woo trng tml. and sat competition.
theundyingwill.

woo yesterday was class choosing day for accountancy ppl! super happy that got into a good class timetable.. shall study hard next year! but the sad thing is that Sarah is not in the same class as us. but she's in the neighbour class. so combine classes will be still tgt. haha

after that went out with her. went to pasir ris to fetch her.. lol had breakfast over there and then head to lido at orchard. bought tix for race to witch mountain. and then started our roaming ard orchard till movie time. had starbucks as well.. woo promise wont be emo again! yeah anw the movie was quite nice. rock's acting was slightly fake but overall still quite nice. had dinner at xin wang hong kong cafe after movie. and then send her back to pasir ris and took the last train back.

now waiting for my mum to buy back lunch for us. super hungry!

just recieved my results. damn emo now. this sem gpa is 2.6. cumulative gpa for the whole year is 3.0 this is like 'omg wtf' to me.. never did i expect myself to get a D. and its for my accounting module somemore. thinking that i'm having 4 accounting modules each sem for next year is killing me. really.

i've no idea how to do this but i guess i'm really gonna study hard next year. as in REALLY. ahh this is so fucked up. to add on to my misery, i'm falling ill.

fuck all this shit.

omg nearly a week without a post.. hmm actually nth much happened. just trainings and work. spcpoc is comming up.. it will be a great experience even we have no chance of winning the title.. and shit didn't go for trng today cos of fever. lucky there's no trng tml either, can rest at home.

PS: trust me.

had mj today at home with her friends.. hhaa was quite fun, but in the end lose a little..but she paid me back the money i lost.. like wth. also nvr ask for it..stupid girl. lolol. boo.

anw after that went to tiong to have dinner and watched the movie, push. was quite nice luh..movie ended at abt 8.30 slacked and talked somewhere at tiong till 10.30 and she headed home..

PS: i love you.

went to sch in the morning for breakfast and gyming session with canoe polo peeps today.. gyming session was quite good, did arms. felt the ache when bathing.lol.

after that went to meet her to send her home.. haha but she accompanied me to have my lunch at clementi first.. after that she need to pass some stuff to her friend so we stopped at bedok.. hmm trip back was sleeping all the wayyy. nearly miss my station again. haha

tml mj at my house with her friends. tilesss do you miss mee? hoho

damn, im getting too tan for my liking.. like seriously, face is oversteamed! lol like what fh said. had freestyle own time own target trng today.. was quite okay.. not very productive. but being in the boat for straight 1 hr plus is crazy. sun isn't friendly recently.

i wanna brush up my boat skills, boat endurance and vision in the pool.

Trunks, listen to my command.
Shoulder, get well soon.
Biceps, pull harder, get bigger
Rest of the body, just get bigger and stay freestylee

LOL. haha enough of that. gyming in the morning tml.

had pool slot in the morning today.. trng and stuff was okay.. haha sunburnt again. ahh heck care. then after trng most the the teamies went to have sakae buffet at Wheelock! lol freestyle eating till damn full..

tml have slot from 11 - 12.30. girls friendly with SP.
super tired now.
sleep.

slacked at home today... shld be the only rest day for every week. but couldn't find ppl for mj as usual. so many clashing schedules. so spent my time watching tv the whole day... spent my time missing her, spent my time suffering from my injured shoulder.. hahah tml will be combined land trng..omg running again!! haven run in ages man.. hope it will turn out alright.

gonna meet the peeps for lunch and movie at lib tml. stay tuned.

i think im just crazzzyy

woo had abit of land trng before slot today.. so we did pullups at first.. 3 sets, 15 , 12 , 10. didn't expect to finish it man. cos my max was like 13 only. but well good that i cant finish it. so after it was running up stairs. that one giddy and steam sial. 8 storeys high..

today is a boringgg day.. slacked and slept at home.. haha BUT tml is the start of holidays trng! yay gonna train myself hard. haha so actually nth much to say now.

on a random note, my bmi is 19.25! haha healthy yo.

had the first trng in about 3 weeks i think.. it wasn't as bad as i thought except for the sprinting part.. cant even clench my fists after the drill. but i love it. haha actually wanted to run rifle range but it was too sunny out there and we we waited for awhile, then it sky turned dark and it started to rain. so it was cancelled.

anw after trng went to meet her again.hoho went to marina sq, pool-ed, dinner at Han's and went home after that. woo pasir ris again.. its so called the best station in s'pore.. -.-

wondering if i shld go gym and shoot ball tml.. i want to rest luh. stay at home slack whole day without thinking of studies. so long since i've done that.

Updates updates! woo sorry for the lag of updates. was busy watching TV and studying for exams! anw, after bstats was miec followed by itb and ffa was the last paper. miec and itb was quite okay.hope for the best for it! but well, ffa was a disaster.. lets hope for the best also. dunno how im gonna survive next year with 4 accounting modules each sem. take care!

haha anw today is the last day of paper. after that went to meet arif, Ivan and dick for lunch. and dick and Ivan got their last paper at 2. so they went off for their paper and arif and me went to swim. well u can say swim. but we are just slacking inside the pool, talking, crapping! next yaoguang hefron and Aaron came.

i couldn't gym with them cos I'm meeting her at 3 in school...she needs to get her textbook for her diploma plus..so dumb.haha anw after that we went to collect paycheck. saw Malcolm there too. after that was walking to Cathay, but halfway we saw sakae sushi and decided to have our early dinner there! hmm so after dinner was watching pink panther 2 . it was a comedy woo. kk sent her back to pasir ris after that. went home.. damn tired after the looooong day.

trng tml! yay! but on the darker side. its nt gonna be easy.

well, im lucky to have did well for the paper provided that i did not listen in tutorials or lectures for the past 5 weeks or so for bstats.. spent 3 days to really settle down and study stats, and it doesn't seems that hard. concept part was easy to understand, the only problem is lack of practice.

hmm today paper. wasn't really confident abt it after it ended..but looked through it again at home and realised that i did pretty good. hopefully.. since normally what i estimate is correct.. stay up till 3am the day before it, and took my exam with a slight headache.

1 paper down 3 more to go. cant wait for hols to be here. not to relax. but to work even harder. TRAININGS.! definitely looking forward to the super tight schedule during hols.

but, study first.
no, sleep first
till then.

Well, i've no intentions of finding out who is the guy behind the screen using my name on the tagboard. i have no time for this. i've got a pretty high EQ as well. hoho

argh anw! didn't study anything shit today and saturday is my paper.
woo all the best!

study at home today with her. was quite productive, finished 2 chaps of ITB woo! then sent her home after that.

anw arif just told me about the conversation some of the canoe-polo peeps had this afternoon.its kinda interesting

it all started when dickson wanted to gym, and here it goes.

we cannot gym coz we must wait for another sunset.. if not you will make a very big mistake in 2007 and regret it for life as your shoulder will pop out.. when pop out, you will watch tv and tv will take away all your A's.. then got prob.. so anything just sms me at 91173948.. and its time for me to wake up and start trainin again.

well u guys may not get it. but this story is made up of our PMs in msn. cool yo!

went to cut and dye my hair today! haha finally cut a quite short hairstyle and chosen a colour which is quite new to me.. its dark purple! well only a little visible under sunlight. if not its just like normal black. woo finally back to dark colours. hair looked less damaged now!
tried to take the colour of my hair. but couldn't see clearly luh. as i said. its like black.

omg! exams is in 2 weeks time and i just wasted the whole sunday! what the hell am i doing! shit.. tat pretty sums up my attempt to study at home.

going sch tml to study.
someone please save me!

images frm a concave mirror. ahaha